Happy Dance

I have a dear friend, who lives on the other side of the world.

Not that distances matters that much because he always seems to appear at times when I need someone to talk to.

The Holy Spirit knows the right time to send him to me.

Or I can just send a message to him and make a date for a chat, today was one of those days.

Sometimes just talking with someone, who understands, helps to clear the fog in ones brain, and I think that today for me the fog is lifting...

Now the wonderful thing is that my friend doesn’t tell me what to do, he has the gift of gently guiding me around those obstacles in my life and allowing me the joy of hearing the answers myself from my God.

It was an amazing thing for me to suddenly see through the fog and see what God wants me to do, to be able put closure to this today.

I am ready today to move on.

That is all I can do with the past regardless of what happened and who was to blame for the mistakes made.

I am ready today to move on.

To move on, does not mean that one loses awareness of what happened, it means I release the pain and resentment from my memory, it means I acknowledge that I did all I could to make things right at the time. It means that the self doubts and questioning stop here, now.

I am ready today to move on.

It also means I will not allow the precious memories that were made during those weeks to be destroyed or tarnished by feelings and self-doubts that are not of God.

How do I put closure to these feelings in my life now? Ahh that is one of the special gifts my friend taught me...

I forgive those things that I cannot forget, and I keep on forgiving until they have no power to hold me to the pain.

It does not mean I do not remember any longer, it means I can remember without the pain and doubts.

I am ready today to move on.

I will have the closure and the peace, because unforgivness and doubts have been exchanged for forgiveness and trust... I have made an exchange in my life, the world’s way of dealing with painful things, anger and unforgiveness for Gods way of forgiveness, trust and peace.

I do not doubt those old memories will try to negotiate another deal with me and test how committed I am to moving on, but I am ready and able to cope with that now.

I am ready today to move on.

There is something that I need to do in the practical sense as well to help with this closure, and the first chance I get to do this I will be doing it, I will be fulfilling a promise I made to my mom...

I am ready today to move on.

The pain can go. The things I will remember now are the joy and blessings and the precious last weeks.

Thank you my friend for reminding me in those difficult times to make memories.

I got a bit lost back then in all the turmoil and pain. Now I have those times to remember, to smile, to hold onto, for they are filled with love and are so special, they are a gift that will help me close the door on this now. So thank you for reminding me back then to make those times, they are something that I will have forever.

I am ready today to move on.

Phil 4:7 ‘And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus‘.